Today was one of those days when I really needed a break away from my kids. Even my husband was getting on my last nerve. Let me explain...
I really want to have a fourth child but my spouse is not at all interested and I find myself wanting to be away from him right now. How do you tell the person you love most in this world, my husband, that you are not sure you can stay married to him because you are miserable all the time and all you want is a tiny baby?" I love my life most of the time, don't get me wrong, I really do not want to be selfish but my heart feels incomplete without another baby. Woe is me...
The problem from his standpoint, which is a good one, is that we do not have the finances or even space for another baby. Someone please explain this to my heart.
2 comments:
Karen...thank you so much for the comments. I would love to hear some suggestions.
If I were to have another baby it would be my last, I would have my tubes tied after the c-section, so I know that would be the last child for us.
As for my darling hubby I do love him and if he decides he does not want a baby I will understand, be sad, deal with it and then move on. I just want him to know my side and consider all the possibilities before coming to a decision.
I know how close to your heart this one is, I know it mean so much to you. What a difficult situation. I see your side, I see your hubby's side. Women feel, men think. It's a hard gap to bridge sometimes.
I love karen's suggestion about finding a job part-time. Maybe you can do it now, maybe not, but soon! Actually, I was JUST thinking of looking into work-from-home jobs.
You could help your husband with the finances which would make him feel better about another child. You'd also get some "you" time AND it would give both of you a bit more time to think things over.
You are an AMAZING Mother and whether it is to 3 kids or 4, what matters most is that you are doing such a great job. I hope for your heart's sake that there is a #4 someday, but also that you and Hubby, no matter what, can work through this. :)
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